• Breakfast: Oatmeal and a nanner. Diet Pepsi.
• Lunch: Plain turkey sub from Jimmy John’s, Diet Pepsi.
• Work snack: Diet Pepsi.
• Dinner: Hot Dog, Cheeseburger, pita chips, nacho chips and salsa. 3 Michelob Ultras. I was at a cookout.  It was nice!
• Late night snack: 6 Hershey kisses.

Not good at all.  I’m going to pay for this at the weekly weigh in.  Today I really felt like I was on a diet (as opposed to just trying to change habits).  I felt trapped by trying to eat a certain way.  It was almost like food was poison and it was dangerous to eat the wrong thing.  I don’t want to have an unhealthy relationship with food, and it felt pretty unhealthy today.  I need to be comfortable with eating healthy.  I don’t want to feel trapped, I want to feel like I’m making good choices.  Not sure quite how to do that, but it felt good at dinner to not be thinking about what I was eating.  This is gonna be tough!

Today’s food intake:

• Breakfast: One exact cup of special K with strawberries. Diet Pepsi.
• Lunch: Italian sub from Jimmy John’s, Diet Pepsi.
• Work snack: Diet Pepsi.
• Dinner: 2 Crab Cakes, unsalted chips and salsa. Diet Pepsi.
• Late night snack: Ice cream, banana, and 6 hershey kisses.

Not great. I was in a sad mood and the chocolate really does perk you up. But its not like I’m proud of that.  But you really can feel the mood boosters in there.  Especially when you’re trying to avoid it.  Crazy.

Today’s exercise. Did the up and out walk. Woke up at 5:35 and went for a really solid 25 minute walk.

Today’s food intake:

• Breakfast: Exaxtly 150 calories of cereal and a Diet Pepsi.
• Lunch: Turkey and swiss on rye.  A paltry sandwich, but that’s what changing habits is all about.  100 calories of pretzel sticks and a Diet Pepsi.
• Work snack:0 Calorie Diet Grape Faygo.  And 10 calorie Diet Orange Cream soda.
• Dinner: 2 chicken breasts (with some cheese and salsa) with mashed taters.  Diet Pepsi.  Oh yeah and half a cup of mac and cheese from my son.  And half a pickled tomato.  I was hungry.
• Late night snack: Other than a diet pepsi, nothing.  Am thinking about that ice cream.

Not half bad.  Dinner was a bit sloppy, but still not so bad. At lunch today I was really missing the taste of food, but it made me realize that I use food as entertainment sometimes.  Which is bad.  It was an interesting realization.